refresh.

Sometimes in life you make mistakes. And sometimes those mistakes will cost you a lot and other times, those mistakes shape you into the person you are today. It is hard to admit when you're wrong and even harder to apologize to those you have hurt. But without this process, you would never learn, grow, and mature. These things don't come without struggle, strife, and heartache either. There are many things you will go through to feel as though you have fully gained something out of your situations. And yes, after you have taken that leap and dove head first into it - you wish that somehow life would provide that "refresh" button so you could do everything all over again. You hate yourself for things you've done, you doubt that you will ever see the better side of things, and you hope to God somehow, by some miracle, people will see you for who you really are not just for your mess ups in life. Being stubborn is one of my worst character traits but it is also something I have learned to deal with. I am me, and instead of trying to change everything about myself that I can't stand, I have come to terms with it and used it to the best of my abilities. That's all you really can do. And those who stand by you through it all, are the ones who accept you for everything you have been, are, and will be. In my life, there are a hand full. I take comfort in knowing that I do have those I can rely on when things are good, and when things are bad. Life is and always will be a rollercoaster. It's not about what's happening in those bumpy, curvy moments - it's about surviving the ride and being able to say, "shit, lets do it again!"