rewind.

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.

Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.

But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did -- but, for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say that could've save someone that we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.

24 karats.

To the edge
Till we all get off
I will take
You away with me
Once and for all

Time will see us realign
Diamonds reign across the sky
Shower me into the same
Realm

Calculate
Ill embrace
Hold on (Come with me now)
Right away
Outer space with me

Time will see us realign
Diamonds reign across the sky
Shower me into the same
Realm
Time will see us realign
Diamonds reign across the sky
I will lead us to the same
Realm

When the coffin shakes
And the needle breaks
Come right away with me
Come on your sick?
Once and for all

Time will see us realign
Diamonds reign across the sky
Shower me into the same
Realm
Time will lead us to the same
Realm
I will lead us to the same
Realm

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Location:Jones Creek Rd,Baton Rouge,United States

family.

Society now-a-days tends to live in a way which reflects the saying, "you never know what you got until it's gone." It is a tragedy that we as people, play a role in our lives that seems so self-destructive. Of course to anyone else other than yourself, you wear a statement of "I hate drama", but yet we surround ourselves with people who reek of it. You are baffled by the fact that your life isn't turning out at all how you planned it. Your head is filled with voices that consume your being with negative words and feelings of resentment, lack of hope, and jealousy. You will be a product of those thoughts, no matter how wrong they are. Those around you will not see past the mirror image of your inner self. You can only be a "barbie doll" a.k.a. fake for so long before you yourself forgets who you truly are. You intentionally internalize things that are said and make them about yourself in hopes that somehow you will find pity in peoples' eyes. You take a situation that you are placed in and instead of finding the good in people and learning from past mistakes, you fuel the fire with harsh words and find a way to still appear as the one who was trying to prevent the screaming match. Can't you see what you are doing? Do you even realize that you are the one who is limiting yourself to reach your full potential in life? You can only complain so long about your situation before those around you will grow tired of hearing your negative banter. You will realize, hopefully more sooner than later, that what you have now isn't at all a situation that deserves your criticism and non-appreciation. What you have is more than most people your age, with your current lifestyle, has or will ever have. And instead of being grateful, you are playing the critic in your life letting your pride dictate your future; claiming that you can find better. As much as we all feel we want to continue to hold your hand to prevent you from ever encountering half of the bad that we have seen in this world - I believe it is time to open the door and politely ask you to leave. We will always be there for you, to offer guidance and love whenever possible. And hopefully, once you have experienced what "bad" really is, and you will, you will come to those that were supportive and offered all that we could (within reason) and find peace with us, in your life. Good luck on your future endeavors and I pray you sort through whatever it is that is causing you to place a roadblock in your life. You deserve better than what I think you credit yourself for. It is just a matter of how hard are you willing to work for it? It's up to you now, mama bird.

time.

These are the days that you wish would never end. Soaking up the sun with the ones that mean the most to you in the world. You don't realize these things until its' to late. Those missed moments that you weren't there for, to experience for the first time; you can never re-gain that time again. Be careful with how you choose to spend your time and those you choose to invest your time in. Prioritize your life in a way that ensures any missed moments won't be those that you wish with every part of your soul you could re-live. It is hard to swallow when those memories that happen once in a lifetime are described in detail by someone else who was able to witness it all first hand. Live in the moment, love as hard as you can, and don't waste anytime. We only have so much time here on earth and what better way to spend it than with those who care for you, love you, and wish the very best for you in the same way you do for them. For it is within these moments, you learn who you truly are.

and winter spoke.

If you don't believe me
If you don't like my plans
You mustn't tell me
I know your face like the back of my hand

We walk the city
I talk so you understand
So won't you tell me
I know this place like the back of my hand

My arms get cold in February air
Please don't lose hold of me out there

And I know you're near me
I know you understand
Say that you're with me
So you know my face like the back of your hand

My arms get cold in February air
Please don't lose hold of me out there

Out there

There, there, February air, air
And I know this place like the back of my hand

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Location:Jones Creek Village Ave,Baton Rouge,United States

this feels safe.

Who knew butterflies, could last all night?

Who knew love could find, its way back in my life.

Eyes collided and my world shook,

Fifteen seconds never felt so good.

Heart skipped a beat could barely breathe,

And now I'm flying up in the clouds,

Can't bring me down, there's no denying,

That these little butterflies have opened up skies in this heart of mine.

Well you make me feel so beautiful,

With eyes that see right through my soul,

A taste of heaven with just one kiss,

I never imagined it could feel like this.

Heart skipped a beat could barely breathe,

And now I'm flying up in the clouds,

Can't bring me down, there's no denying,

That these little butterflies have opened up skies in this heart of mine.

Up up and away,

there's no need to stay.

Down here,

With you feels safe,

All cares melt away,

And everything else just disappears.

Heart skipped a beat could barely breathe,

And now I'm flying up in the clouds,

Can't bring me down, there's no denying,

That these little butterflies have opened up skies in this heart of mine.

Who knew butterflies could last all night?

you.

You used to call me everyday
the words mean nothing
without someone to say
now I stand beside myself in the pouring rain
and I just want to see your face

When you're far away
I miss you
but I know you're here with me
when you're far away
I need you

I lie awake it's ten past three
this empty feeling
and baby I can't sleep
the only thing I left behind
a smile you can't see

I need you

When you're far away
I miss you
But time won't heal the pain
when you're far away
I need you

And I won't go back
and I can't go back
you're all I ever needed
I want you back
but you can't come back
you know I didn't mean it
I take it back
and still i pray
for one more chance
for one more day with you
with you.

When you're far away
I need you

take it all in.

Your three sides of my excited circle, two lovers, juxtapose with your ways,
Broken window dreams color her eyes in with black lines,
Let it all run down, let it all run down.

There's no explanation or forewarning underneath, all the silver linings
We approach the streets with a clear conscience we'll survive,
Let it all run down, let it all run down.

It's one way to afford a horizon and not to mention,
It's one way to say we're abandoned, and we don't belong here at all.

And romance just is...

Slow it all down, the damage is done,
Play the music loud, don't make a sound,
Lets raise a toast to the sad story, in a dirty cup, in a dirty cup,
You made it, you made it hurt so bad,
You made it hurt, so bad.

With a little poison they can burn this whole place down, to the ground again...

carbon copy.

“Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.” - O.W.

Today is a day where I am bored to tears and when this happens I tend to over analyze everything. In doing this, I have realized that most people around me have the incapability to "be themselves". Whether it is the clothes they wear, the phrases they say, the people they surround themselves with, or the choices they make in life - it seems it is all for someone else. My question is why? It seems to me that you would want to make every choice to benefit yourself and not others; not making choices for attention or praise. What most don't realize or fail to see is that the only people that will be standing with you in the end aren't those who you copied, those you tried to show off to, or those people you trusted with your most intimate secrets. It will be God, your family, and yourself. Those who you worked so hard to impress won't be there to face the choices you made, or the consequences that come from your actions. I urge you - look deep within yourself, follow your heart, and live for yourself.

From this, you will experience the true happiness you have been so desperately trying to seek and obtain. Emotions are fleeting and ever-changing. If you place all of your emotions in someone elses' hands and expect them to keep you on an even keel - you are dooming yourself to live a very unhappy life. No one should ever have to carry that burden, nor should you ever ask. Your happiness is dependent upon you. Until you learn to keep yourself content, no one else will ever be able to. This is something that has taken me many years to realize, and even to this day I have a hard time following my own advice. I am sending these words out into internet land in hopes that it finds those who are in similar situations and facing these same trials. Maybe I can help you, help yourself - before its too late.

independence.

Happy Fourth of July!


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Location:Unnamed Rd,Baton Rouge,United States

refresh.

Sometimes in life you make mistakes. And sometimes those mistakes will cost you a lot and other times, those mistakes shape you into the person you are today. It is hard to admit when you're wrong and even harder to apologize to those you have hurt. But without this process, you would never learn, grow, and mature. These things don't come without struggle, strife, and heartache either. There are many things you will go through to feel as though you have fully gained something out of your situations. And yes, after you have taken that leap and dove head first into it - you wish that somehow life would provide that "refresh" button so you could do everything all over again. You hate yourself for things you've done, you doubt that you will ever see the better side of things, and you hope to God somehow, by some miracle, people will see you for who you really are not just for your mess ups in life. Being stubborn is one of my worst character traits but it is also something I have learned to deal with. I am me, and instead of trying to change everything about myself that I can't stand, I have come to terms with it and used it to the best of my abilities. That's all you really can do. And those who stand by you through it all, are the ones who accept you for everything you have been, are, and will be. In my life, there are a hand full. I take comfort in knowing that I do have those I can rely on when things are good, and when things are bad. Life is and always will be a rollercoaster. It's not about what's happening in those bumpy, curvy moments - it's about surviving the ride and being able to say, "shit, lets do it again!"

never thought i had anymore to give.

A thousand times I’ve seen you standing
Gravity like a lunar landing
Make me want to run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
Drift to you, you’re all I hear
Everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

Find the place where we escape
Take you with me for a space
The city buzz, sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I had to find just where you are
The faces seems to blur, they’re all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don’t you trick me out
We shall overcome
So all have stayed in place
We should have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we’re over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time, too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

As if we could last forever
Love remains the same

macy skye.

Macy Skye Mauffray greeted us with her presence on June 30, 2010 at 3:51pm. Weighed 7lbs 8oz. Such a blessing! I got to be the second visitor to hold her. Loved every moment.


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Location:Airline Hwy,Baton Rouge,United States