family.

Society now-a-days tends to live in a way which reflects the saying, "you never know what you got until it's gone." It is a tragedy that we as people, play a role in our lives that seems so self-destructive. Of course to anyone else other than yourself, you wear a statement of "I hate drama", but yet we surround ourselves with people who reek of it. You are baffled by the fact that your life isn't turning out at all how you planned it. Your head is filled with voices that consume your being with negative words and feelings of resentment, lack of hope, and jealousy. You will be a product of those thoughts, no matter how wrong they are. Those around you will not see past the mirror image of your inner self. You can only be a "barbie doll" a.k.a. fake for so long before you yourself forgets who you truly are. You intentionally internalize things that are said and make them about yourself in hopes that somehow you will find pity in peoples' eyes. You take a situation that you are placed in and instead of finding the good in people and learning from past mistakes, you fuel the fire with harsh words and find a way to still appear as the one who was trying to prevent the screaming match. Can't you see what you are doing? Do you even realize that you are the one who is limiting yourself to reach your full potential in life? You can only complain so long about your situation before those around you will grow tired of hearing your negative banter. You will realize, hopefully more sooner than later, that what you have now isn't at all a situation that deserves your criticism and non-appreciation. What you have is more than most people your age, with your current lifestyle, has or will ever have. And instead of being grateful, you are playing the critic in your life letting your pride dictate your future; claiming that you can find better. As much as we all feel we want to continue to hold your hand to prevent you from ever encountering half of the bad that we have seen in this world - I believe it is time to open the door and politely ask you to leave. We will always be there for you, to offer guidance and love whenever possible. And hopefully, once you have experienced what "bad" really is, and you will, you will come to those that were supportive and offered all that we could (within reason) and find peace with us, in your life. Good luck on your future endeavors and I pray you sort through whatever it is that is causing you to place a roadblock in your life. You deserve better than what I think you credit yourself for. It is just a matter of how hard are you willing to work for it? It's up to you now, mama bird.